![A woman, clothed, floating in a river looking up.](/_app/immutable/assets/betty-blue.CyW84M7_.jpg)
My whole life has been an effort to tear myself away from male desire, in other words, from my own desire. In '63, I repeated to myself these words from the Bible: “And I will extend peace to her like a river,” not even knowing that these words referred to my desire, sperm flowing over me like a river.
![A sepia-toned photograph of a waterfall.](/_app/immutable/assets/peace-like-a-river.BbJACRSK.jpg)